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I admit, my Site had Succeeded to this leval lately- on my end. Your comments and emails have been great, and I appreciate the communication we all have, but I've been slacking on my end- so I figured I owed an explanation.

I started this Site out of anger, in response to the positive press that the Spitzer scandal had received. I wanted to get the other side out there- the real side of escorting. I wanted the world to know that it wasnt all big easy money and fun, there was a side not talked about. And I think I did a pretty good job at opening up and sharing that.

Recently it has gotten harder for me to see that. Like a bad relationship, after awhile you look back and the good seems better than it was, and the bad drifts away and leaves your memory. It becomes harder to recall, and although you know it is there the good parts plant themselves up front, creating the illusion of something better than it was.

I dont know if its the holidays, my relationship slowly straining, or my Girls who call day and night and night. I dont know if its monetary, emotional, or just some addiction that I cant escape, but escorting has been on my mind.

I guess thats why I havent written too much on the subject lately. Im a horrible liar, and I dont want to risk anyone reading something positive about escorting from me. Even if I never know, I dont want someone to come here and read something Ive written and make the choice to escort. I want to continue to stress that its not the right choice, . I want to get to the point where it is out of the question, whatever the circumstances. I want you to become one of those strong women on tv who shudder at the thought, who believe in themselves, and would never, ever consider selling their temples.

I want youself to be strong someday, not someone with no respect for her self who contimplates selling herself to make ends meet. I just wonder how much long it will take. What do I need to do to get there? Is it even possible?